Jaymez World

I am in the mist of trying to arrange my life so I don’t seem like a chicken with a tiara on……wait-thats not right!

I to0 believe that it gets better!!

I was one of those kids who happened to be teased from birth.  I happened to live around alot of aunts and uncles, who had children around my age and older. I knew I was different from all of them. They hung out playing basketball and Nintendo/Sega all that crap. I was the one putting on shows on my front step and dancing in our front yard. So you can only imagine how much I was ridiculed when I was a kid. However, As much as I was ridiculed when I was younger, my cousins would take up for me from time to time, but that did not happen alot.

Not only was I made fun of for being different with wanting to perform all the time, but I was also made fun of because of the way I spoke, how I walked, the way my parents dressed me. ABSOLUTELY EVERYTHING YOU CAN IMAGINE.

That followed me from elementary school to middle, where people thought I wore make-up. I’d never HEARD of make-up, but I was also made fun of because my voice had not changed. I could sing like Mariah Carey in the middle of a warm July evening on a stage in front of millions of audience members. So you can only imagine.

I remember talking to my mom on my way to my grandmothers house, telling her that people were making fun of me. I will always remember her telling me ”Who cares what people think of you, no one matters but you. When its all said and done, no one makes you who you are but you.” My grandmother to me, People may call you names, but that makes them look ignorant. Don’t let someone else take credit for making you who you will be!” I think about that all the time, almost everyday.

I will never forget being hit in the head with a rock because I had a favorite pound puppy I brought in for show and tell. Not only was the pound puppy ripped in half by those kids but also to this day still have the scar on my forehead.

On to high school, which was probably the worst. I had to quit gym my freshman year because guys were making fun of me , not wanting to change in front of me-calling me: fag, queer, and every dirogatory term you could imagine, and then made fun of to my friends who had to stick up for me. Which eventually became to much for me. I remember drinking an entire bottle of nyquil, trying to end it all because I felt like no one cared. My parents did not understand what I was going threw. My sisters being confused not knowing what was going on. I attempted not only once but several times, not realizing what I know now-Nyquil only makes you sleep more. But I think God for my naivaty or I would not be here today.

One day I realized that my mom and grandmother were right, I cant let other people make decisions about my life. I can honestly say that the ones who tried to make my life a living hell actually helped me. They made me work harder at being what I wanted to be and part of that was being better than them. I was determined to not only show them how great I could be but prove to myself that God had a plan for me. A plan that was better than any of them could imagine.

So I say to you, ” THINGS GET BETTER.” You may not think so now, but you have so much to look forward to you. You have so much to prove. You are worth every breath of air you take, every move you make, everything you conqour. You show the world what you can do. I look forward to every second.

So, I have been crocheting for a while now. I can make a mean beanie, I suck at making scarves, and I am still trying to figure out the whole boret thing. Even after crocheting 4 of them.

Anywho, I have decided to see who make different types of blankets I can make. Instead of starting with the basic blanket, which just keeps going and going and going, I want to be super cool and have designs and things on them. SO I am starting with  a granny square blanket. I have no idea who to exactly do it but I am pretty sure I can figure it out. I tried to watch clips on you tube, but I have noticed that the youtube clips are not easy to follow- AT ALL!

So after altering all of it to better fit me. I have started. I have started working on them about 2 days ago and I have about 8 squares done. My colors are a tealish blue-tan-Dark Brown, and then a swirl mix of the all of those. Here is a pic

a few of the squares

I will keep everyone updates as I go along- I am very excited!!!

I think I calculated it right. 14 squares across/ 20 squares down

280 SQUARES